Wednesday, February 22, 2012

To give up or give......



I have to admit....I'm a little over-whelmed by writing tonight. There is a storm out that cause my autism to show its "agitated and flappy symptoms" that I can normally control. But hey its better then it use to be, I normally would wandering the house a lost soul in the storm...but tonight I have Teddy to love on, friends to text/message  and I'm a  lot calmer.

The other thing is Lent. I'm really not sure what to do with Lent. It's a time of repentance and and renewal. For me however, I don't feel any renewal or hope really in the spiritual sense until Easter, even on Sundays which are days of celebration even during Lent.

It's odd, you would think as I got older and more educated it would all make sense or I would find a path or something. But I get more confused.

The more I study the more I follow the way of the mystic OR early Christians.....the way of heart and love. The LIFE and teachings of Christ...the prophet and Mystic that he was....not JUST the cross.

I'll be honest it scares me how much the "right" concentrates on that instead of life...on end times instead of making heaven here on earth.

I earn more about earth religions which do NOT pull me away from Christ but lead me to his  teachings  yet it sees to push pull me away from "church". A conundrum no??

I'm actually going to  leave you early tonight with a continuation tomorrow because the storm keeps knocking out my internet...sooooo I will leave you with 2 links.

One is my blog on my partners blog spot from last here and my thoughts on Lent and one of my favorite stories of my child hood and it happens to include Lent.

Last year's Lent blog on WhisperCreek

Forgive many of the typos in that story  an emotional time and a heavy seizure med time, but very very heart felt.

And then this calendar I thin is way awesome. It is by the United Church of Christ. Instead of the blanket give something up or make a big change,  but to take it day by day... small changes but honest ones.

Awesome UCC Lent Calender

The link and PDF may take awhile  but it is worth it!!!


FYI a dear friend mentor of mind just kinda compared Lent to spiritual spring cleaning....what do you think?? I really like that, until about an hour ago Lent was honestly making my heart scared. Remembering the story on the link and this comparison is helping me make peace.

Peace and shalom my friends.

Carrie

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OK...peace shalome and much love

1 comment:

Carrie Lynn Humphreys/ Autistic Mystic said...

wonderful insight. He had the same issues tonight as we also are having storms here. He woke up out of a sound sleep in a panic from the thunder and lightning. Just another night as mom. :-) Finally got him back to bed, wonder how he will be in the morning. (From my friend Tonia on FB) Thanks!!