What is a weed? A plant whose virtues have never been discovered.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
God/dess doesn't make junk!!! How do we know? How do we really know? If we are fortunate enough not to feel like junk but we see those around us, lame, crippled, or other wise disabled, how do we know?
We have problems unseen (un believed) , "friends" make fun of us, loved ones don't understand us, how do we know?
Our chair, our cane, our walker, the cancer, blindness, deafness,injuries that change life plans, how do we know?
Being gay, queer, transgendered, a different race or culture in a small community. How do we know???
How do we know God/dess doesnt make mistakes or junk....or even throw a ways???
How do we know God/dess doesnt make mistakes or junk....or even throw a ways???
FAITH oh yes one little word that is so so hard at times. Faith!!!!
How do we find it.....? Look in your heart, look at the people around you, look at what you do have. Look at creation, how do you even see all this with out faith, a belief in a higher power.
Personally I'm struggling with this right now. It feels I have two choices...to medicate and make myself acceptable to those around me ( this is my problem not theirs, the hurt is getting to much) , or re-accept myself and accept most people will never under stand me even partiality.
I have FAITH I know God/dess didn't make a mistake so....so I go to science, part of her creation to get me through this hump...or do I some how pray, mediate, hope, wish, work, for the strength to get a better grip and realize if they don't accept me they are not worth it. It hurts. I wont lie. It is hurting my job, my home life, my friends, my heart, my soul, but oddly enough my Faith is stronger and even more sought after than before, and a friend out of the blue saw my status and as been getting me through!!! So some good has come!!! (not to mention J is helping but I fear I'm hurting her).
How do we find it.....? Look in your heart, look at the people around you, look at what you do have. Look at creation, how do you even see all this with out faith, a belief in a higher power.
Personally I'm struggling with this right now. It feels I have two choices...to medicate and make myself acceptable to those around me ( this is my problem not theirs, the hurt is getting to much) , or re-accept myself and accept most people will never under stand me even partiality.
I have FAITH I know God/dess didn't make a mistake so....so I go to science, part of her creation to get me through this hump...or do I some how pray, mediate, hope, wish, work, for the strength to get a better grip and realize if they don't accept me they are not worth it. It hurts. I wont lie. It is hurting my job, my home life, my friends, my heart, my soul, but oddly enough my Faith is stronger and even more sought after than before, and a friend out of the blue saw my status and as been getting me through!!! So some good has come!!! (not to mention J is helping but I fear I'm hurting her).
"The strong and steadfast power of faith is precious indeed."
Buddha
I have faith, so how do I listen to it??? Is it faith to trust science, or faith to trust my strength to over come? Or even strength to have faith to trust science??
2 comments:
Situations like this remind me how there is a big difference between choice and discernment. discernment means that in the midst of all our considerations, we factor in one more thing: what is god calling us to be/do in the situation at hand/ what path will call us into more fully living out the live that God intended for us to live.
Most people of faith will acknowledge that God can and often does work through pharmaceuticals - including psychopharmaceuticals that affect the way we process and respond to the world. Now, I think that it is perfectly reasonable to wonder about being less one's self by opting to medicate. I'll go so far as to say that we are obliged to ask the question! But we should also ask if choosing to medicate might help us become more of our true self, because very often, that is the case. I have a couple of family members for whom that is absolutely the case. For whatever reasons, some medical condition gets in the way of becoming the people that God intended them to be. For these people, the choice to medicate didn't have to do with others' reactions to their cognitive variations - it had to do with their own sense of self and well-being (or in these cases, the lack thereof). For them, medicating was the right thing to do, but for others, it isn't always the right call. Only with a lot of prayer, and a willingness to take some risks can you know for sure.
Take as much time to pray about this as you need to. Then step boldly into whatever course you and God come up with, knowing that you are being faithful to God and to the person God is calling you to be. And those of us who love you will be with you every step of the way!
Thank you SHelley. You gave me hope. Gave me understanding and more patience thinking it through!!!
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